The end of the semester is almost here and I am so ready for it. It has been probably the hardest semester I have ever had. Student teaching is nothing like I thought it would be. In some aspects I feel like it has been super easy and maybe a little too easy and other parts have been insanely hard. I can say that on a daily basis I feel inadequate and stupid. Right now I am only teaching first and second hour because I am starting to phase out and by next week I will not be teaching at all. But because I am only teaching first and second hour I have the opportunity to watch my mentor teacher teach the rest of the day. She is an amazing teacher and after watching her teach I see so many things that I wish I would have changed or done better or mentioned while I was teaching. I know this is a learning process and that I can not be perfect. But I do wish there was just one day were I "killed it". One day where my teaching was good and I had no problems with it.
As time goes on I know I will become a better teacher but sometimes it is so hard to keep going. I feel like I am doing a disservice to the students I teach because I suck most of the time. I do try but most of the time I am not very good at it. I do love teaching though. I love getting to know all of the students and hearing all about their lives. Its fun to see a students face light up when they finally understand something that has been very confusing to them.
This semester is almost over and now I have to find a job and hopefully next year I will be a better teacher. I have learned so much this semester not only about teaching but about myself. It has been the hardest thing ever but also the most rewarding one!!!!
