What I believe!

I have been thinking a lot lately about what I believe in and I realize that I am not very good about letting people know what I believe. So this post is to hopefully let people know what I believe in. I believe in God. I know that he lives and loves me. I know that he is mindful of my every desire. I know that prayer really works. I have seen it in my life time and time again.

 One experience of the power of prayer that comes to mind is when I was waiting for my student teaching assignment. I had been waiting for my student teaching placement and it was something I had stressed over. I was nervous about who my mentor teacher would be, if that person would be willing to really help me or if they would just throw me to the wolves. I prayed so much about that situation. I prayed that I would be placed with someone who was willing to help me and would give me advice. I prayed that I would get along with the person that I was placed with and that the experience would be a good one. I truly feel blessed to have been placed where I was. My mentor teacher was so helpful. She gave me advice and we got along really well. She has also become an amazing friend and someone who I go to often when I need help not only with teaching but other things as well.

I know that there is great power in fasting. My experiences with the power of fasting are countless but one in particular is when my niece was in the hospital. I will never forget the Sunday that as a family we fasted that she would get better and that the doctors would be guided to give her the care she needed. At the end of that fast miracles occurred not only did the operation she was having go smoothly but from that point on she started to get better.

I know that families can be together forever. That is one of the amazing things about the temple. I am so grateful for the fact that I will be able to see those family members that have passed on once again. 

I am so grateful for the people who have been placed in my life to help and build me up. I know that Jesus Christ is my savior. I know that the Book of Mormon is true and is the word of God. I am grateful for the power of the atonement and for the ability to repent, change and grow. I know that God lives!!

An end to the hardest thing ever but also the most rewarding!

The end of the semester is almost here and I am so ready for it. It has been probably the hardest semester I have ever had. Student teaching is nothing like I thought it would be. In some aspects I feel like it has been super easy and maybe a little too easy and other parts have been insanely hard. I can say that on a daily basis I feel inadequate and stupid.  Right now I am only teaching first and second hour because I am starting to phase out and by next week I will not be teaching at all. But because I am only teaching first and second hour I have the opportunity to watch my mentor teacher teach the rest of the day. She is an amazing teacher and after watching her teach I see so many things that I wish I would have changed or done better or mentioned while I was teaching. I know this is a learning process and that I can not be perfect. But I do wish there was just one day were I "killed it". One day where my teaching was good and I had no problems with it.

As time goes on I know I will become a better teacher but sometimes it is so hard to keep going. I feel like I am doing a disservice to the students I teach because I suck most of the time. I do try but most of the time I am not very good at it. I do love teaching though. I love getting to know all of the students and hearing all about their lives. Its fun to see a students face light up when they finally understand something that has been very confusing to them.

This semester is almost over and now I have to find a job and hopefully next year I will be a better teacher. I have learned so much this semester not only about teaching but about myself. It has been the hardest thing ever but also the most rewarding one!!!!

Update

So its been quite a while since I have updated this. I moved back from Flagstaff the middle of December. I finally had started to really like it up there. So this semester I am student teaching at Gilbert High school. I am really enjoying it, my mentor teacher is amazing but I will say that it is hard. I finished the week up pretty frustrated with myself. I really wish that I could speak better and could teach better. I know it will take time but it still is frustrating. My Grandpa call Saturday and we got to talking. He was a teacher and then later a principle and one thing that he said to me really struck me hard. He said, "Just remember that there is always someone else in that classroom that is watching over you and will help you out." I know that my Father in Heaven is looking out for me and will help me out. I just have to remember to ask for it. I love my Grandpa for reminding me of that. He is such an amazing man. He always knows what to say and how to say it!